It was a good week overall and it's nice that I weigh in early because IF I am disappointed in my Saturday results I still have Sunday to try to crank out a little more weight loss by eating super clean and trying not to stress out since that just creates a roadblock to loss.
According to the official scale I lost another 3.4 lbs and 2 more inches! Again, since I haven't kept religious measurements I don't have my left thigh or arm or true waist to add into the mix but I can guesstimate rather than the 23.5 inches it's more like 30+ because I am officially wearing size 12! Yay!
I weighed myself as soon as I got home from Silverdale (not immediately after weigh in but I had been shopping at the mall and drinking my water so I'm sure I was about the same) and it was a .10 lower than the clinic scale. Now I could have lost a .10 of a lb. but either way it was so close I truly can trust this scale of ours and that's a relief since it cost a lot of money!
I know I mentioned this before but my clothes (and especially jeans) can add up to 3 lbs. so it was a shock to see the difference when I weigh first thing in the morning sans clothing.
The clinic says I now weigh 176.6 and that's good! I weighed at 173.9 yesterday morning (of course, before all my water, coffee and breakfast) and I couldn't believe it! I am THAT close to 30 lbs. So close I can almost taste it..... and it's going to be so amazing when I get past that elusive 170 and into the 160's because it's been so long since I have been at this weight! I am so much more comfortable than I used to be and I wouldn't have been able to put this into words before. Yes, I still have some aches and pains and issues that come with being 50 but I haven't been this light in at least 6 years so this is amazing. I try to compare myself to shows I was either directing or was in and 6 years ago Mark and I were just getting ready to open in "My Way - a Tribute to Frank Sinatra" at BCT. I know I was a size 12 (at least in my very fancy ballgown and an 18 in the bridesmaid-y gown which always run super small) and we were in the midst of doing the Atkins diet. I think I lost about 7-10 lbs but I remember feeling heavy and bloated from too much fatty stuff. I totally got tired of bacon (can you believe it? Me? Tired of bacon?) and we chose to quit after about 4 weeks. I had to of started a slow gain after that although I know I was still bordering on a 12/14 in the summer of 2008. By that fall, I know I was a 14 though. My dresses in my closet proved that.
So this isn't uncharted territory as at my smallest (around 1994-2000) I was typically a size 10 and approximately 155-160 lbs. I may have been a little lighter but I don't remember getting back into the 140 range since I was in my 20's. I know when I got married (the first time) in 1989 I weighed 141 and thought I was FAT. God in heaven, why did I have such a twisted sense of self? Oh yeah, I also wore a size 10 most of the time back then and because I wasn't a single digit size I was kicking myself constantly for being FAT. Oh, here's another funny statistic: when I bought my wedding dress (and those dresses were always cut very small so you have to order at least 2 to 4 sizes bigger than your actual size) I had to order a size 12. GOD HELP ME. And they had to take it in..... I thought I was so huge because of my size 12. I was working in the industry back then and I knew that those dresses were cut differently and yet I still turned into a nutcase over that '12'.
Now I'm just so thrilled to be a '12' again I will never look at this size in such a way again! Granted, I don't intend to be at this weight any longer than necessary so I am looking at it as a stepping stone. It's not evil, it's just a number and a journey mile marker on my way to a very healthy weight. According to the Tanita scale it says I have another 27 lbs of excess fat to lose (to get to 25%) so if that holds any truth (I know it's not 100% since our hormones do affect the results) I do have at least 20 lbs to go. My goal right now is to get to 21-23% body fat and I don't know if that's realistic or not at this point. It really depends on my bone structure and how I'm feeling at each milepost. According to the matrix at the clinic acceptable normal range of body fat is 23-34% for the average woman of my age. Now that's a huge difference in terms of percentage numbers. I know that I have a large bone structure and a lot of muscle mass as I weigh 110 lbs with just bones, muscle and organs. I am supposed to have at least 33 lbs of fat for 23% so that means 143 lbs is about that. That is about 30 lbs from today. I don't know if I have a true 30 lbs to give.... and that's okay. If it works out that 20 lbs is right and I am a size that I like and I look fit and healthy then I'll stop there. If I need that additional 10, well.... I may do it. I know we all gain weight once we start in maintenance because we have to add real carbs back into our diet (dairy, grains, and a few other assorted healthy things) so I want to be sure I'm truly comfortable.
So I really don't know where I want to land in terms of size and weight. I do want to see if I can look good and be a size 6/8 since I've truly never been that. I've worn lots of size smalls back in high school and I wore size 7/8 back then (and thought I was FAT - argh!) but from college onward I was that curvy, muscular size 9/10. I know sizes have changed in 30 years but I still want to know if I can attain that true size small without looking anorexic.
I have been toying with the idea of starting to run (again) and if I do run, then my body fat would have to stay in the low range (18-21 %) so that my knees like me. I also plan to start doing martial arts, yoga and dance again so I know the weight will stay off. I'm pretty excited about this..... I know that I can maintain now. Even though I want to eat all these yummy desserts I've pinned on my Pinterest page, I know I have to control it and save those treats for special occasions.
Yeah....so there's lots to think about but there's lots to be thankful for as well. I still am in shock that it's been almost 9 weeks and I have yet to let a carb/sugar enter my body other than the IP foods. I have not touched a potato, noodle or piece of rice other than to serve it to Mark and his mom for dinner. I've only eaten meats and veggies and my only vice has been an occasional piece of bacon or licking the peanut butter off the spoon. I don't miss potatoes on my plate. I actually accept that lovely plate of veggies, meat and a side salad. I love my hard boiled eggs or pickles for snacks. Who the hell am I??????? :-)
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