I've been wondering how to keep updates on my new diet blog. At first I thought I'd do daily blogs but quickly realized that weight doesn't necessarily come off daily. Then I thought "I'll do this weekly, right after my weigh in or at the beginning of the week (my week starts on a Monday and I get weighed on Saturdays).
Well, that all kind of went out the window again. I will always post my official weekly weigh-in numbers and measurements since that's how my clinic guarantees my successes and/or setbacks. I know that if I reach a milestone mid-week though, I HAVE to post it because it feels so good to be able to say it! There are many other things that pop up though with this program. I guess with any program, if you are having success (or failure) you want to talk, vent, and even discuss human psychology and your own emotional journey as you partake in this what I consider lifetime journey to health and fitness.
So I have had a frustrating day and 1/2 on the plan. It wasn't being hungry or bored with the food, thank goodness. I mentioned in my previous rant...I mean blog post that my hormones are running amok. I starting gaining both lbs and body fat. Well, my body fat is still reading high but it's finally starting to come down. I had my yearly physical yesterday and discussed all the changes my body is going through but my doctor wasn't too concerned. She said everything was looking good and that the main things she's worried about are my blood pressure (which read sky high at the office and I know have to keep a chart for a week and let her know how my BP reads which by the way is NORMAL so far) and my diabetes diagnosis from last year. As you may or may not know, I kind of ignored that diagnosis and tried to diet on my own and with Nutisystem (both failed after some minimal success) so I kind of said 'screw it' and ate whatever I wanted. Ah, denial....my best friend.
So fast forward to now and I'm 20 lbs down according to the home scale. Again, my scale tends to be generous so it may be 19 but I'll take what it tells me! TMI moment coming: skip to the next paragraph if you don't want to read this! I was holding on to about 2.5 lbs of water and excess gunk yesterday - I was bloated and uncomfortable and then all of a sudden my body said "enough" and I had a couple of visits to the bathroom! I'm hoping the hormones are finally saying adieu for the rest of the month?
After my physical, I had to make a couple of returns to Macy's plus buy a wedding gift. I got a lovely surprise in a $20 off coupon for buying a wedding gift so I thought I'd look at dresses for the wedding. The pickings looked a little slim to me but I kept looking and found a few things in my now back to a smaller size 14 body. I thought to myself "why don't I try a size 12 for shits & giggles?" So I traipse to the dressing rooms and find the first 14 dress is a little loose! Well, well....not too bad, right? So I go to the next size 14 and it too is a little too big! I'm not thinking 'go down a size' because then it will be too tight. Sure enough, I grabbed the 12 I had and the waist band just wouldn't let me pull it over my boobs! Feeling humbled by that experience I went to another size 12 and the darn thing fit! And it looked cute! It was really close cut, clingy and a little ruched so it would cover any stomach pooch or back fat but I just wasn't convinced it was age appropriate. So I went back and got a few more dresses (both sizes) and the one I loved was a black dress (fitted on top, sleeveless with a box pleat skirt with pleather trimming - very Audrey Hepburn and very classy) and it was a size 12! OMG! It was gorgeous!
I spun around in my size 12 and something held me back from running to the counter to pay. I wasn't sure what was going on in my mind since I had the knowledge of just having returned $190 of merchandise onto my Macy's card and this $20 coupon burning a hole in my wallet! It took a minute but I finally realized what was wrong. This dress will be too big for me in a month! It dawned on me that even if I don't lose a lot of lbs over the next 5 weeks, I will lose inches! No matter what happens, as long as I stay faithful to IP I will lose at least another dress size in 5 weeks! Holy cow!
After realizing this, I just stood there and took a mental picture of myself in that dress. I knew that I would be coming back to Macy's in a month to find a dress that will fit my body at that exact moment. And that dress will probably be a size 10! OMG! I haven't been a size 10 in 13 years! This just blows my mind. Reality finally hit me. IP works. As long as you don't cheat, drink your water and take vitamins, potassium, digestive enzymes (if needed) and get your oil and omegas in you will lose a LOT OF WEIGHT. Whether you see it in numbers or inches, you will see it. And even if I still am a size 12 on that day, it doesn't really matter. I just can't predict what size I will be in 5 weeks but I do know I will be smaller and everything I tried yesterday will be too big! What a feeling!!!!
Well, back to the doctor, diabetes and denial..... I am supposed to go to the lab for a fasting glucose test (which I chose to save for tomorrow since I have to fast all night and the timing has to be exact for both the test and for my breakfast so I don't get super cranky or sick from low blood sugar for not eating before my normal time). I am praying that my blood sugar readings truly show the magic that is IP. I feel so much better since starting this plan so I know that my blood sugar is stable and normal. I just have to prove it to the doctor with a blood test. I will be thrilled if those numbers are normal!
The other mind altering experience I just had was that I went to my closet and finally got the guts to pull out 5 blouses/tops my mom had bought for me before she passed away. The were always too tight before but I lied and told her I'd wear them soon. When she passed, I just couldn't give them away. First of all, they were super cute and my mom had the best taste in the world. She practically dressed me because she was always buying me clothes! Secondly, the sentimental value of these clothes (with their tags still on them) just wouldn't let me give up the last memories of my mom. She worked so hard to find me things all the time.... she loved shopping for bargains and I just couldn't let someone else wear them.
So, I went into the bathroom and started trying on these super cute tops. Well.... for the first time, everyone of them went on and buttoned up! Yes, a couple of them were just a tad bit tight across the chest (a tough problem to have, right?) but I honestly think it's the bra and not me. My bras are actually getting too big and they're padded so I think the 'girls' are hanging out a little bit! I almost cried.... I know my mom is looking down at me and is about as proud as she can be. This is the first time I've ever been able to wear these super cute things and after a new bra or at least another half inch down around the bra/back line and those tops will fit beautifully! I could probably wear a compression cami and make them fit if I really wanted to but I think I'll save them for when I lose a little more. In the meantime, I'm so overjoyed with this accomplishment and really proud of myself for getting this far. I'm almost half way to my goal. The goal may change slightly in either direction depending on my body fat. I'm strictly going by that as opposed to trying to hit a number on the scale and how I'm actually feeling.
So that's my experience with IP...mid week 5. Pretty exciting stuff!
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