Wow.... I never imagined I'd be sitting here writing about starting my 7th week on IP. I am one of those gung-ho types that last about a month and then the interest wavers.... exercise usually lasts quite a while as long as I don't get sick and have to lie low.
But, yes....starting the 7th week. Unofficially, I am 22.5 lbs down. Body fat is down too.... looks like another percent! It was a rough weekend and my eating times got really skewed but I managed to bring down Saturday's gain.
I'm grateful that I am not craving specific foods but then I make sure to stay out of the way of sweets and other non protocol treats. While at Costco yesterday, I had to pass donuts, pasta, chicken pot pie and a few other assorted yummies that I would have gobbled in the past. It wasn't that hard, to tell you the truth. And let me tell you, I am grateful that I've got self control for the first time when it comes to food! This is a major miracle that I needed since I tend to obsess on food.
I'm hoping that this week's a better one in terms of true weight loss. I've reached the lowest number on the current decade and I want to get into the next 10 lb range! I truly expected to be there by today and my body just didn't want to go there.....yet. I know I've had the picture perfect IP losses through the first 5 weeks. To lose 4 lbs a week (average) is pretty dang amazing for a woman of my age. Men, those lucky dogs tend to lose 7 lbs a week on average! I hate them. LOL. So it was kind of hard for me to have a slight setback. I guess it was just God's way of reminding me to appreciate the journey and stop obsessing on the negatives. It was a really difficult weekend emotionally so I guess He was just telling me to relax and slow down. Focus on the good, Trina. Good advice, I think.
I'm 3% away from what's considered healthy body fat. And those who know me understand I'm not after an actual weight but a body fat percentage. Even when I get closer, if my body feels right I may stop sooner and phase into the next part of the plan. I'm really playing this by ear and hoping it happens sooner. It would nice on our credit card if I could phase off! But ultimately, this is an investment in my health, my life and Mark says it's worth every penny if I feel as good as I do right now. And seriously, barring the emotional stuff I have been through, I feel great. My knees are SO much happier. My back is stronger, my feet don't hurt and my arm has literally no pain (except from playing piano so much this weekend). So that investment is really worth it in the long run.
If you're reading this and are wondering about this plan, let me tell you that it really works. It's not cheap. It's a bit of a sacrifice initially but once you start shopping for food, you realize you're not spending that much after all. It does balance out.
The losses in my case seem to be literal and figurative. I still have a hard time truly seeing my new body because it's constantly changing and our brains take up to a year to catch up when going through a transformation. I think it takes some people even longer. I'm hoping I'm not one of them! I know I'm smaller. I see the numbers on the scale. I see the size tag on the pants I'm wearing. My shirts are now Mediums and Larges rather than Xtra Large. It's right there. But sometimes, all you see is Debbie Downer in the mirror (and trust me, she was staring back at me for a long time) telling me how fat and ugly and miserable I was. Seriously.
Our fat cells hold on to lots of things while we're in this state of obesity and all the trappings attached to it. We hold hormones, toxins, water, chemicals and I think some emotions as well. I have been kind of a Weepy Wendy today, mourning some losses after making a decision to stop involvement with something dear to my heart. I realized that it's time to let go of the bad. No matter how hard I tried to help, it's not getting received or getting better so I have to take care of me and let it go. I know it's the right decision but boy am I sad. I've been crying some real tears today. Not been feeling real well physically and I'm sure it's all this stuff that's trying to get out of my body.
What a journey it's been thus far. It's far from over, it's just begun. Who knew?
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